Hi, I am Alxis. I am a volunteer sound tech during worship services and I love to learn more about the matter. :D
I just find it so exciting to get to know more about mixing and giving all the tech support I can give to the music team performing in the stage.
I love to work in the sidelines. I love being one of those that are not in the spotlight.
This year, all campus victory group leaders from the whole South Luzon area will be gathering for a camp (see picture), and I am one of them.
Photo above not mine (taken from our facebook group)
There is however a problem before because my salary is delayed for two months now and I really cannot figure out where will I get the money to pay for the whole camp. The deadline for the first installment of the payment was last friday, Feb 28, and I am part of the crowd who was not able to pay due to lack of funds.
"It is only my salary which can really finance this", I tell myself, so I started praying for our project budget to arrive already so that I can already have my salary and pay for the reg fee. Abie, my batch mate in college and now a campus missionary, encouraged me to believe that this time, God will provide for me a reg fee, and even something bigger so that I will become a channel of blessing as well.
I actually doubted that.
However, God did something.
A VG Leader named Lem told me to find teammates and join Labu-Labo, a general quiz contest open for all UPLB Constituents. I thought about it, and I was not really that game to join until leader, Austin (who happens to be Lem’s housemate) invited me to his team and really join the contest.
I never knew until that day, March 3, that the twist of the contest was that the second prize winner will emerge as champion with a cash prize of P20,000.
To make the long story short, we won second prize. Our team, PATA TEAM, won that 20,000. Austin, Primus (another churchmate), and I won the second prize!
Figure above not mine (It was Julie Aiza’s, and i just edited it)
A lot of things happened during that quiz contest. We started from Block 11 spot, and made our way to the 1st place spot, and we eventually became second placers after the last question.
We are very sure that it was God who moved and orchestrated those minute details of our pursuit. Anything could have happened during the game- we could have just been 1st placers, or non-placers at all.
We split the price three-way after removing the 2,000 tithe.
We were mind blown.
I used my whole share to pay my registration fee in the camp in full, and blessed two people with enough amount to pay for their first installment fee.
Ephesians 3:20 “Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us” was resounding in my head.
Just two days ago, I remember God’s power in providing anything in a snap with the verse from Psalm 74:15 "You split open springs and brooks; you dried up ever-flowing streams."
I can’t contain my happiness during the following days. God is so great, so creative, so awesome.
We are still in Tagum and I’m always full because we always eat a lot.
I am just fooling around right now because I can’t find time to be introspective and write something deep.
I believe I am in that season right now where God affirms to me that He is my father- a father whom I can run into when I am not okay, a father whom I can depend on at times I do not know what to do, a father who can just hold my hand and lead me to the place I need to be in, and a father who provides not only for the things that I need, and even those that I want.
Despite having financial constraints, I am being blessed continually with things that I have been asking God for- things I do not know where I’ll get the money to have it.
All this time, what I did was to just audaciously ask God to give it to me. I’ve been somehow shedding tears whenever I pray because I am very much comforted by the fact that when I approach Him as a father, I do not calculate the things that I ask, for he is limitless and He can provide anything according to His will.
The feeling is just like being a five-year old child again, asking his father to buy him that toy he saw on a display at a particular department store. A boy not calculating if his father can pay for it, because there’s just that familiar feeling that his father can really get it for him.
I am just so happy to see my name on the list. The results were disclosed through email three weeks ago. I just want to post this photo.
Actually, sometimes, I find it hard to approach God as my father when it comes to asking some of the things that I need and I want. I have been used to calculating my abilities and what I can do with my hands before asking God to give it to me (as if the provision will be dependent on my ability to produce things).
I sometimes fail to grasp that He is a father that is rich, and is willing to give me good gifts when I ask them (Matthew 7:7) as long as it is according to his will, and that he can do immeasurably more than what I ask and imagine according to His power (Ephesians 3:20).
I find it unhealthy sometimes when I find myself calculating the things that I am praying for, limiting my prayers into faith goals that could be easily attained. Limiting the room for the grace of God to work.
This start of the year, I experienced something that made me felt like God was telling me, “My son, I can give you provision regardless of your state right now. I can give you your wants and needs. I can do immeasurably more than what you can ask and imagine. You do not have to calculate your prayers. I am your Provider, I am your father.”
Well, that makes me cry. I don’t sometimes grasp even the idea of a father’s love. I am however comforted by the fact that my God is also my father and I am his son.
Today, I experienced two things that I never thought will happen.
1. I watched a seminar today just because I wanted it and found it interesting. During my college days, I only watch seminars because they were required by my respective classes and it can add up to one’s credentials. However, a while ago, I went into a seminar that talks about the patentability of DNA Sequences, just because I found it interesting.
2. I finally penetrated Jave Avenue! This is a party place, and I was able to enter its premises a while ago due to an event organized by a class led by a good friend of mine. It was a nice feeling knowing that it was an area which you never considered to tread on during college. HAHA
Weird day. Great day.
I am looking forward for next week because I’d be receiving the money allotted for the new iPad mini that I’ve been praying for this year. Actually, I had been thinking if I’ll be purchasing the 16GB one or the 32GB one.
However, as days pass, my four-year-and-a-half old laptop makes me feel like she’s already shouting her goodbyes to me. It’s getting more noisy and it’s giving me the idea that it might break any time soon.
I backed up some of my files already.
I am thinking this time if I should abandon the idea of buying the iPad and just use the money for a new laptop/netbook instead.
I am still in faith the God will provide both this month though.
I am also doubting as well.
Actually, I do not know now what to do.
Basically, it is a friday but then I think it will not hurt if I write a post using a Truth Thursday prompt from last week.
The season I am in right now is no longer like my college life. Gone are the days where my closest chums are just a text away, or just a call away, days where I could just invite people whom I’m trying to get close with to bond with me whenever I had more than an hour of free time in between classes, days where there were only a few things I am juggling.
Shared moments seem to be lesser and lesser as I try to pursue the paths marked for me. Shared moments seem to be lesser and lesser as people get busy working also on the path marked out for them.
I am a person who enjoys company. I like to be with friends especially when I do not have anything to do other than stare at my laptop’s monitor or start another good book with a cup of coffee.
I enjoy listening and talking. I enjoy discussing my thoughts with people, and hear their own stories as well especially if these people are very close and important to me.
For me, happiness is spending time with people I want to share my time with- the close chums I had in college, the people whom I am strengthening relationships with, and even family whom I’ve already had since the day of my birth.
Time is one of the most expensive commodity that one has. It is sometimes equated to be of equal value to gold, but I believe it is more than that.
Isn’t it very great when your paths converge/intersect with the paths of other people even if it is just for a cup of coffee?
(But being an ambivert, I also sometimes think that happiness is having all the time that you need to just stop and let the time pass by doing nothing but read, think, and then sleep, HAHAHA)
Truth Thursdays exists to connect people through writing. To initiate something honest, thoughtful and meaningful.
More than anything, I am much much more focusing my energy and time this year in strengthening and developing my relationship with the people that are around me- from churchmates, to our church leaders, to workmates, and even those friends who have been my chums during my college days.
I realized that this is one of the things I have sacrificed during my younger days because I was in the pursuit of getting higher grades. HAHA. :)
I find it fun to bond and interact with more people today. I enjoy it a lot, especially now that I have some time to spend!
I just hope that this will not impede my growth in my work though :D